Friday, October 12, 2012
Dare I say it? I mean I guess I don't believe in jinxes so, I might as well. I'll let you in on a little secret....I am the happiest I've ever been. Wait, did you catch that? I AM THE HAPPIEST I'VE EVER BEEN! No, I didn't win the lottery, but I feel like I won the life jackpot. I feel so incredibly blessed, and I've done nothing to deserve it. As one of my good friends says, "It's just a gift, and it's crazy that we get to unwrap it every day." I feel completely settled. I'm content. I love being 23. My dog is great. My family is even better. I'm loving my job and finally feeling challenged again. Coaching has been a huge blessing in my life! I'm pouring into those girls and loving the happiness and the smiles and the thank you cards and the e-mails that I get back in return. My apartment feels like home. I love my church. I'm sleeping better. My face is practically zit-less. I'm on a coffee kick (which could explain this the themeless-ness of this post). I've been enjoying the beautifully-breath-taking fall season in the Midwest. I'm spending more time outside. I can't remember the last time I cried for no reason (actually, I can't remember the last time I cried, which is a good sign). I'm taking risks. I'm breathing deep. I'm enjoying life. I'm trying new things. I'm writing love letters to my Savior. I'm painting my nails crazy colors (okay, so that's not so new). I'm listening to good music. I'm speaking my own language (at least according to my co-workers and some examples include: "My phone is on the fritz.", "Bee-Tee-Dubs" (short for BTW, which is short for by the way), and "Amped"). I'm running farther and faster. I'm enjoying the scenery. I'm learning to be flexible. I'm spending time with friends. I'm busy again, and it's no secret that I love this about my life. I'm getting to know the streets of Des Moines by heart. I'm keeping a schedule while being spontaneous? I don't get it either. I'm thinking in statuses. I'm writing thank you notes. I'm gaining a heart for Corporate America and the sadness that's hidden inside of those cubicles. I'm finding my purpose. I'm asking God to give me ways to share my faith daily. I'm reading good books. I'm staying organized. I'm planning and dreaming big. I have that inexplicable joy back that has been missing for so long. More than anything.... I feel like myself again. This, I'm sure, can be attributed to many things, but they all stem back to my Creator. He knows every fiber of my being, and I think this life phase has been a long time coming (at least it seems so in my mind). I can't wait to see where all of this takes me. I guess I only have one word to leave you all with: AMPED.